This is Caroline Jones' moving and deeply personal diary, written as she watched her much-loved father die, and in the years since.

'I've been given the wisdom of so many people's stories, their real life struggles; I have committed them to memory and treasured them in my heart. And I suppose that is why I am expected not to grieve or even recover quickly from my loss' these are Caroline Jones' opening words to this moving and deeply personal diary. It was written over several years as she watched her dearly beloved father suffer, and eventually pass away. It is a diary from the heart of this most highly respected radio/television journalist and presenter.